The Last Letter of John Keats.

To Charles Brown
Rome, November 30, 1820.


My dear Brown -- 'Tis the most difficult thing in the world to me to write a letter. My stomach continues so bad, that I feel it worse on opening any book, -- yet I am much better than I was in quarantine. Then I am afraid to encounter the pro-ing and con-ing of anything interesting to me in England. I have an habitual feeling of my real life having passed, and that I am leading a posthumous existence. God knows how it would have been -- but it appears to me -- however, I will not speak of that subject. I must have been at Bedhampton nearly at the time you were writing to me from Chichester -- how unfortunate -- and to pass on the river too! There was my star predominant! I can not answer anything in your letter, which followed me from Naples to Rome, because I am afraid to look it over again. I am so weak (in mind) that I can not bear the sight of any handwriting of a friend I love so much as I do you. Yet I ride the little horse, and at my worst even in quarantine, summoned up more puns, in a sort of desperation, in one week than in any year of my life. There is one thought enough to kill me; I have been well, healthy, alert, etc., walking with her, and now -- the knowledge of contrast, feeling for light and shade, all that information (primitive sense) necessary for a poem, are great enemies to the recovery of the stomach. There, you rogue, I put you to the torture; but you must bring your philosophy to bear, as I do mine, really, or how should I be able to live? Dr. Clark is very attentive to me; he says, there is very little the matter with my lungs but my stomach, he says, is very bad. I am well disappointed in hearing good news from George, for it runs in my head we shall all die young. I have not written to Reynolds yet, which he must think very neglectful; being anxious to send him a good account of my health, I have delayed it from week to week. If I recover, I will do all in my power to correct the mistakes made during sickness; and if I should not, all my faults will be forgiven. Severn is very well, though he leads so dull a life with me. Remember me to all friends, and tell Haslam I should not have left London without asking leave of him, but from being so low in body and mind. Write to George as soon as you receive this, and tell him how I am, as far as you can guess; and also a note to my sister -- who walks about my imagination like a ghost -- she is so like Tom. I can scarcely bid you good-bye, even in a letter. I always made an awkward bow.

God bless you!
John Keats.


The Letters of John Keats to His Family and Friends ed. By Sidney Colvin. MacMillan and Co., 1891. 376-7.

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See also:

• The John Keats Page: links to online poetry, prose, essays, correspondence, images and much more;
• Keats Biography in Chamber's Cyclopedia (1863). His passions were always violent, and his sensibility most keen....
• The Percy Bysshe Shelley Page. Links to online biography, poetry, prose, essays, images, articles and more.